These last few weeks Condor has been sick and finally on the 20th, we took him to ER. It went from shortness of breath and a wounded foot with edema with the legs. Went from possible pneumonia to fluids on the lungs, to heart failure and then fluid in the upper regions and still low oxygen. To now waiting on a cardio cath (coronary angiogram) to see where that stands after a blood test with platelets low, so the looked at the liver and spleen. Spleen is enlarged and looking like cirrhosis of the liver but not sure to what degree.
It's given me a few days to think about how most of my connections that are close are to people not even in the states. Besides CD and Condor, I have no one besides my dog at this point who I consider my inner circle. Most others have died, moved on or moved over seas. So basically, I will be alone unless a miracle happens and with my own health faltering at times there's not a lot of comfort in the possibility of the last one remaining of our circle of people. The truth will be unlikely he will out live me which is what we had not expected.
Tonight has just been a night of way too much over thinking and being this week as well been trying to not let myself spin and turn into a S.W. like it was in the years ago.
Song: Stay by Lavito and Rachel Hardy.
https://youtu.be/Gm3MB6Y3slY?si=8tOFQbNcinPVCjGM
